Self Portrait

Took a self portrait the other day…

The image helped me remember how our children are so often…for better or worst…a reflection of our successes, failures, fears, virtues and vices…

Let us pray we do well by them!

-ehw

I Am Peter’s Shadow

    Year after year as a young man I wondered time and time again, “Why would the Lord pick Peter?  He failed in the hour of need! He was boastful and hot headed!  Then he sinned by inaction no different than Adam!”  After gaining many a grey hair, all I can think of is how I am Peter’s Shadow! 

    Peter was the first Apostle to receive and act on the gift of Faith by telling the Lord he was the Messiah.  Peter wanted to protect the Lord but was called a Devil for trying to avoid the Lord’s death in Jerusalem.  Peter wanted no part in the Lord humbling himself to wash his feet, but when corrected displayed exuberance in saying wash my whole body!  Peter struck the High Priest’s slave in the garden with Christ, but denied Christ three times in the garden of man.  Peter did not come to the foot of the Cross, but ran with abandon to the empty tomb.

    I now recognize Peter is the disciple who’s spirit and temperament is closest to mine.  I can get exuberant, but make mistakes just as brilliantly.  I see the world in ways most others do not, but it does not mean I am always right or can even explain myself!  I know the Lord is my God, but in sinning abandon our Lord in both dark of night and light of the day. 

    This Good Friday, as I attend Stations of the Cross, I will recognize myself as Peter’s Shadow on Good Friday.  I know in my life I often abandoned Christ on the road to Golgotha.  I know when I refuse to participate in Christ’s suffering, I hurt Christ and his mystical body even more!

    So I will do as Peter did after Christ died.  See Peter was hiding in that Upper Room Easter morning, but it does not mean he was slothful!  Peter assembled the Apostles over the two days Christ spent in the tomb.  In that Upper Room he was feeding Christ’s shepherds!  It might have been in fear and sheepishly, but he began doing part of his vocation.  He just needed a cue card for his next steps on when and where to re-enter the world!

   As Peter’s Shadow this weekend I will take a page from his life.  I will look at the family God placed in my care, memorialize my failings since I will see them again at my judgement, ask the Lord for forgiveness, and get back to work serving those in my care while I await the Lord’s next command on Easter Morning.  I know the Lord will expect nothing less.

-ehw

Advent and the Tenacity of the Holy Trinity

In my daily journey’s I enjoy looking for events which could be a great photograph.  One theme recurs to me time and time is the tenacity of life to grow where it just should not.  Life sprouts forth from parking lot cracks, granite rock faces, and dry deserts where you scratch your head and ask how and why?  Each time I see life exist where it should be futile, I am served up a reminder of the tenacity of the Holy Trinity in reaching out to us to join them in our daily and eternal journey.

              On a hot summer day, you stand in a parking lot.  You feel the hellish burning heat reflected off the asphalt.  It is a manmade feature on the planet serving a valid purpose, but comes with its own downside in this fallen man influenced world.  Yet as you walk in and out of that lot you see grass and weeds poking their stems as high as possible despite lack of a deep soil or multiple run ins with car tires.  Is this not a reflection of how God’s love comes through the offering of his son to heal original sin?  He came from what the world calls total insignificance.  Jesus preached the word and then was threatened, beaten and crucified despite his innocence.  Yet the same Jesus rose again to preach some more.

              When climbing a mountain, you see a massive tree on the side of a great cliff as you ascend at great effort to see reach your destination.  You see its massive roots wrapped around outcroppings and separating fissures to reach virgin water and soil deposits.  Is this not like how the word of Christ when preached and evangelized by deeds wraps around our jagged personality flaws perfectly?  Is this not the image of Christ digging into our conscience to build our faith in God to survive a tempest from hell through the sacraments of our faith?  Is this not Christ touching John the Baptist in the darkness of the Elizabeth’s womb, and launching the prophet with zeal on his mission for life?

              In my years in the high desert of Fort Irwin, I saw with amazement donkeys surviving in the wild by constant movement from remote water source to water source.  I could barely fathom how they knew which way to go, yet they thrived in good health on that desert floor.  Now almost twenty years since those days, I can see how this points me to the guidance of the Holy Spirit in my life.  The Holy Spirit held my hand through heights of success to the throws of crushing defeat, through good health and bad for my clan, through valleys of faithless people shooting arrows at me from all sides, through my failures due to my own faults, and into the arms of God filled friends to heal my wounds.

              The tenacity of the Holy Trinity is a blessing for each of us, and perfectly explained in this Advent season.  We have the plan for our salvation created at the beginning of time coming to fulfillment because the Trinity never stops working on this world.  God creates life and a plan to atone for our sins, incarnates the Word of God in Jesus to allow God the Son to physically walk the earth with his cross for our sins, and then God the Holy Spirit leads the Holy Family through dangerous deserts on a Donkey to the safety of a cave to prepare for a birth.  This tenacious Trinity can easily be overlooked in the bustle of our lives.  However, when we embrace the Trinity in the moments it reveals itself in our lives we are directed to eternal life with God.

Just Follow the Light

This tunnel we’re in right now is long and dark. Thankfully there is light even in the darkness we can follow.

-ehw

(This is an access ladder on a grain silo at my son’s workplace.)

If we Kept God Above Us...We'd be OK

Day after day the news feed hits keep coming. Left, right, center it does not matter. They just keep coming. I just want my family to be safe and one day reach heaven. I actually day dream of my greatest wish and request of God from time to time in these times of stress. I want to be so blessed that one day my children and grandchildren are circled around me in heaven signing Hosanna before any altar in heaven. I just know our eternal souls will be ok if we keep God on the cross above of us. Yet this is the world’s challenge is it not?

I pray you and yours keep your eyes on God, and help us do the same. We’ll do our best to return the favors as we all march through these turbulent times.

-ehw

The Lights are on...and my Girl is coming Lord

A glorious vigil here tonight. Kellie Marie, our fourth child prepares to receive Christ tomorrow for the first time. I hope soon the whole church reopens fully so we can get back to receiving the food which nourishes our eternal souls. The Lord is lonely for far to long. He calls for us, he searches for us, he nourishes us. We should have never left him so alone. I am so proud to go with our Kellie Marie and take her to meet the Lord.

Our Lady of Perpetual Help Pray for us.

-ehw

The Hope of Our Lady of Sorrows

Our Lady of Sorrows your heart pierced seven times yet never flinching in your hope, faith and love for God the Father, his son Jesus, and the Holy Spirit which rested on you bringing Jesus into the world. Pray for us, and intercede for our needs today when your greatest pains only further united you with God. Teach us how to use our suffering to do the same on this Good Friday.

-ehw

A Flock in the Desert Without its Master Present

This weekend most Catholic Churches across the country closed to its laymen for the first time in our lives. This created a first for many of us laymen in a developed and religiously open country. The laypeople in the mystical Body of Christ did not connect with the physical Body of Christ through the Mass offered by our Priests. Instead we all found ourselves offering up spiritual communion intentions, and placing great faith in our spiritual connection through the Holy Spirit. In my mind I visualized us as a flock in the desert, without the presence of our master.

In this case, I in no way mean our parish priest as our master. Priests, being fallen people like myself, can be powerful shepherds or incredibly destructive from time to time. We have one master who all these shepherds answer to, Jesus Christ. Jesus is the perfection of Man, and our direct physical connection to God. Priests are part of the mystical body of Christ, a very vital part connecting us through sacraments to God. They are not however our Master.

In the Mass we Catholics have a fullness of worship. We get the inspired word of our Lord through the readings, and participate in the same sacrifice of Holy Thursday and Good Friday in our time. It is a lot to think about! The more you dive into it with your intellect, the more your heart gets set ablaze with fire for Eucharist.

To many of other faiths this may seem unnatural. Well it is, it is supernatural. In the natural human experience we see many examples of this. When we love someone, we make time for them. We long to hear their stories. When we revere someone, we look up to them for guidance. When a good master sees his flock needs substance he provides it. Sometimes the good master also knows what we ask for is a result of our wants and not needs, so he corrects us. When the good master asks for assistance, we willingly provide it and suffer for their requests so we achieve his goals.

The experience of the Mass is the merging of our human experience with the supernatural. The biblical words of God never praise man, they call man from sin to virtue. The words are one of master to servant, caring and ever consistent in the context of the world they entered. In the same way, the food provided by God at Catholic Mass follows prototypes handed down from Abraham to Melchizedek to Moses to David to Isaiah and the real food of Christ himself at the Last Supper. In fact Catholics believe the Eucharist at each mass is the same as the Eucharist of the Last Supper…and yes the Body of God the Paschal Lamb.

In this Lent, we must walk through a spiritual desert. We of course have God’s Biblical words, but we do not have Eucharist. It is like reading a letter between husband and spouse separated due to challenges of this world. Messages get passed alright. However the longing is real for physical presence of the other spouse. The strength of the emotion will be overwhelming at times. We also long to be with our priests, the shepherds working for the Master who we love as brothers in faith. They are the ones trained and consecrated to help us to the master. So we the mystical body of Christ and the physical body of the Church is separated.

The thing about a desert though, a fact I never recognized before living in one for a few years, is life exists there with a tenacity few recognize. You have to dig for it, you have to protect your food and water, your have to learn how to navigate across long distances of scarcity to reach safety. When you reach an oasis, you appreciate it more than you ever would if you lived in a well watered forest your whole life. This is the lesson of this Lent for me, and maybe a whole lot of us. I miss my Lord, and I know a whole lot of people who do as well.

-ehw

Lovettsville Virginia Honors Those Who Gave All

Today my family took time to really remember those who gave all for us to live our lives in freedom. We attended mass at St.Francis De Sales. We came back home to attend what I thought would be a small ceremony in our little neighboring town of Lovettsville (We live just outside of town). Little did I know this town of 3,000 people would muster up a very honorable and well thought out ceremony which did remind us why this is a Federal HOLY-DAY.

Today I saw too many names of West Point friends and fellow servicemen I served with over my nine years who fell in the line of duty pass in notes between us remaining friends. This ceremony presented a loving tribute to those who served and gave all. It also allowed my children to appreciate the gift of life they have today.

Around or dinner table we talked of millions in re-education camps in China, the brutality exposed by escapees from North Korea, and the technical threats which come from unknown sources stalking our livelihoods around the world. It was a good way to remind my children once again freedom will never be free in this fallen world.

Business customer service fails when we think of pure profit over caring for the customer’s needs. Families fail when we assume our personal wants are more important than the success of the whole unit. National security missions fail when one person assumes their needs are greater than the needs of the many.

For my family discussion tonight this allowed us to come back full circle to how we started our day. We went to Mass, and participated in the sacrifice of our Lord for our salvation. No one more just or powerful ever died for others salvation in all of history. We must strive to remember freedom does not mean the ability to do anything. Freedom means we have the ability to choose the right thing, or accept the consequences of not doing so.

These men and women we honored today gave their lives and never came home. It does not matter how..they gave all for us. They gave of their freedoms so we may have a moment with freedom ourselves. So let us use these moments wisely, and defend our children’s ability to pick up the mission themselves.

-ehw

Little Color in a Dreary Day

    I heard much sad news, was stuck indoors, and saw the constant clouds out the window today.  So I looked for a moment of solace.  To find one I went into "view my memories mode"...and found a bit of color to share.  It helped me think of the glory of God, and crack at smile to end the day.

The Cowgirl

    My Cowgirl...

    The title suits my baby Big Girl.  Took this after a hot day, late summer birthday party with her friends riding ponies.  I swear you can see her independence, sweetness, and sass all in one shot.  

    Some people say a good portrait is supposed to let you see more than the image of a person...it is supposed capture the essence of the person.  I can use some more practice, but this captures Kelley....

Joyful Fatherly Moment on the Range

     Time is in very short around here.  It is a constant race against time to get up, feed, cloth, clean, teach, maintain, and then get back to bed before it starts all over again.  It seems at least half of the eight of us are always out of sync with the others....Too often our weekends are merely Groundhog Days.  

    Well in the midst of all this I was able to take advantage of a wonderful opportunity provided by the Cherokee Gun Club.  I was able to spend over four hours with the two big boys on the range learning safety, good habits, and showing them what a fun lifetime hobby looks like under the guidance of an incredibly patient guide and trainer from the club.  Look them up, and if you have kids who want to learn the same...contact them.  You will not regret it, in fact you'll be trying to schedule another visit!  The boys will not let me forget to...and Momma liked the confidence the boys came home with.

    The key to the day was the tutelage of Mr. Richard.  You will not find a calmer and nicer man to enforce safety while displaying the joys of shooting.  He listens, coaches, and keeps the focus of boys in a way I wish I could emulate.  He made my job of being an extra safety and assistant coach a joyous one. In fact he made it easy for me to come home and say I helped my boys grow up a bit today.  So I got as much a gift from today as they did.

    One message I always find myself returning to in this blog is why my photography is important to me...and it so much relates to life.  You have to find the good moments and appreciate them.  Today was one of those good moments to be a Dad.  Thanks God and the Cherokee Gun Club.

-ehw

Spring Sprung a bit in Georgia

    One thing I love about spring in our home in Georgia is the ever unfolding reminder of the march of time.  All through the summer the blooming bushes and flowers will rotate with a beauty to remind me of how much greater His Glory will be in heaven.  If you can find a loveliness like this here in a fallen world; imagine what beauty will await where perfection, justice and holiness prevails everywhere.

    Happy Sunday!  Enjoy some time with God today!

-ehw

Divine Mercy Memory

    Today my wife and I had a Sunday afternoon date...to complete our Divine Mercy Novena and Sunday at our church.  While I am still processing all the lessons from the last ten days, I rarely allow myself to miss a nice moment or two with the capture of a frame of electrons, ones and zeros.  The image on the program matches the beauty of the Holy Hour... so I just had to share.

    Jesus I Trust in You!

-ehw

Gone Fishing- Photo Essay

Just a few shots from going out and about with Kevin after dinner tonight. This boy may have a hard time concentrating on finishing his dinner, but he focuses pretty hard out here with his rod and reel.

Walking his line down to lure the fish in...

Dad I had a steong nibble

The Tin Fish which got away today

My little fisherman

Carry Your Cross

     Carry your cross today.  The Saints remind us, the only way to heaven is through the cross.  We must suffer, and learn to rejoice in that suffering.  This is such a hard concept if we are of this world and not Christ's.  (I struggle with this debate daily myself!)  So let us not be like the masses and flee our Lord in his time of need.  Let us take up our personal cross, and follow Christ in his way of the Cross.

PS  Please pray for the boys...we start carrying our cross today at 1155, St Brigid to Regina Caeli, Academy.

-ehw

Happiness Comes From....

    St John Paul the Great says: "No one apart from God can give you true happiness."  He calls us to follow the example of Mary, in complete unconditional "yes" with no compromise or laziness. "Humanity is in urgent need of the witness of free courageous people who dare go against the tide and proclaim with vigor and enthusiasm their personal faith in God, Lord and Savior."  This mission is never easy...and is impossible if we rely on the power of man alone.  He quotes Luke to remind us "What is impossible with men is possible with God."

    I am starting to get "it" in the long line of repentant sinners knowing I just need to do what we should.  Tonight I'll pray we can all embrace the power of the supernatural God to be what we are truly called to be in our eternal home.

(Quotes and Lesson courtesy of Lent and Easter, Wisdom from Pope John Paul II, Compiled by John V. Kruse and published by Liguori Publications page 54)

Faith, Hope, Charitas- A Photo Essay

In the darkest of times...where people keep faith in God they will find hope he placed in our hearts by the same God to do the works of charitas needed to build a foothold of his kingdom on earth, and earn entrance to his kingdom in eternal life.

If we loose the faith...the darkest of times becomes a very dark eternity without hope, and a complete isolation of self from others and our creator.

-ehw

When Times are Crazy - Pray for one moment of peace

    The last two weeks were crazy: Long work days, family fighting off various rounds of the December virus, robotics competition, about two cords or more of fallen tree branches in the yard, family challenges that come with six kiddos, we lost a great American soldier I once was proud to call my own, trying to discern God's will for my family, and a dozen other crazy moments and challenges.

    All this made me  have a hard time focusing today.  Very hard!  All that stuff was running around in my head.  Luckily I was able get a good rosary in at church, and then work on that yard doing physical labor for a few hours.  In the rhythm of prayer and breaking down branches I centered myself for a while.  So when Kalen and I came in from the rain, I was able to appreciate this one moment of two boys of mine playing.  

    In that moment of personal peace I was able to catch a photo of two boys secure in a warm house, loving each other, two boys who know they are loved by their parents, and safe from so much evil in the world...for just a moment.  Now at the end of my day a friend lost his son-in-law in an accident, and I know I need to pray for him and his family.  The sorrows and confusion of the world is back on.  They, and so many others, need a moment of peace to begin to work towards healing.

   I'll pray for all those who need their moment, because in my moment of peace I realized again how blessed I am.  Blessings however cannot stay still, they must move on to help others.  So I will do what I can in prayer tonight.  I'll also pray someone who reads this, may just be inspired to join me in looking for moments of peace to share with the world.

-ehw

Amidst the Chaos - Pray

    The world outside is frightful.  The agents of chaos are legion right now.  Mass destruction warfare is now more possible than ever before, because courageous men did not act when the opportunity was present.  In our country, agents of anarchy want to use their evil to deliver tyranny on the masses through imposed Marxism.  In our church, the evil theology of modernism is encased in prelates unfaithful to the unchanging magisterium of Christ's bride on earth.  Inside family life we also have the chaos of too much noise competing for the attention of us parents and our children.

    Now is the time to pray.  Pray for a moment of silent reflection amidst the storms, war, noise and chaos.  Find your moment and ask to be the instrument God needs you to be to bring the world back to him one soul at a time.  Now is the time to become the missionary of his word, to create safe havens for our families to make the new missionaries, and to remember this struggle is an eternal one on God's timeline not ours.

    Like everything else the Lord teaches...what seems hopeless by the world's terms is actually the situation where we can use his power working through us for miracles in our time to flow.  It all starts with a prayer to beat back the chaos.  The call is now out there...what do you say>

-ehw