I will simply say last night was glorious.

A day full with early diaper changes, management of an energetic three year old, four hours with 10-13 year olds working on Lego Robotics, too much work not done around the house, and a still recovering Momma ended in an evening of riches and thanksgiving to God.

Why? Because after years of fighting the thought I am finally putting nails, locks and fittings on the lid of the modernism heresy in my life. I still like fast cars, the best house, fast computers, new cameras and fancy dresses for my girls. I just know the true rewards in a fleeting life meant to work our way to heaven are the moments where God's love shines through us. I'll work hard to get the tools needed to survive, but not to the detriment of the mission of unity with God.

So when John Paul fell asleep on my shoulder before dinner, just brining him to the table nestled there with the rest of the family was a joyful moment of God's plan for heaven peeping through. I could almost imagine the four babies we lost with us at the table as well...the whole family was there in a moment of peace. It is almost a moment one would hope could be eternal.

I am finally following Jesus guidance by accepting in my heart, my true kingdom is not of this world. This world is a passing moment in our eternal lives. The eternal is the reward. What a wonderful table that will be.

-ehw